James Barry

This is my 5th Year in Review. This page is an effort to put into the words the progress I have made in life over the past 365 days. Areas where I succeeded, areas where I did not, and overall what I am working towards next year.

This review is 100% for me. I share it to encourage others to do something similar, while also increasing my own personal accountability.

I will be asking myself the same three questions I asked last year:

• What went well this year?
• What didn’t go well this year?
• What am I working toward?

What went well this year?

Relationships / Romantic Life: I got ENGAGED! So that area of my life is going quite well. Not much more to say there 🙂.

Career: My big goal this year was to make a living through game development. I thought I would be able to do this by bootstrapping my company into profitability. What I didn’t expect was that I would get a job at another studio doing exactly what I do at my own company. So far I’ve been greatly enjoying it and it’s opened the door to new opportunities that I never could have even dreamed of. Also, my own game, Idle Brewery is also doing pretty well!

Competition: I was part of a team that won the majority of the awards on the Corinthian sailing circuit. I’m going to be sailing with them again this year, which I am quite excited about.

What didn’t go well this year?

Health: This year, I spent the majority of the fall and winter sick with a cold and cough. The severity ranged from a minor annoyance, to a full blown illness where I couldn’t leave the house and had to miss a wedding. Then, at the very end of the year I fell while skiing and severely bruised my rib. Which hurts, a LOT.

Emotions: I spent a lot of this year either angry, sad, or frustrated. While the highs were high, there were a lot of lows and I was working all of the time and pushing myself towards burnout. On the bright side, the second part of the year was much more enjoyable than the first and it looks like things are continuing to trend in the right direction.

Balance: See above^. I feel like on one hand, my life has no balance. I am constantly focused on work, working out, improving some area of my life, competition, producing something OR completely destressing, usually by watching TV or playing video games. I don’t know if this is healthy, and I don’t really know what I to do about it. Part of me wants to work and accomplish more, because I’m not where I want to be yet, but I can only get so many hours of work in each day. I’m a walking conundrum. Simultaneously I know I need balance, yet I want less.

Reality Checks: Kinda like the point above, this one is less of a “what didn’t go well”, but more a general thought. I got a serious reality check this year on how high the bar is in my own industry. It’s higher than I ever thought was possible. Luckily, this doesn’t make me want to give up, but it’s just intimidating knowing how much there is to learn and improve.

What am I working toward?

Surviving: This new year I have a lot on my plate. I have my own game, a full time job, a large sailing commitment, and an upcoming wedding. Lots to do! Just getting through the year will be an achievement in and of itself.

Being Less of a People Pleaser: Yup. I am a people pleaser. I like making others happy, often at my own expense. This year, I want to avoid this, which should help with the next point:

Protecting My Time and Attention: Nothing is more valuable than these two resources. In fact, they are the resources that I am currently most starved for.

Final thoughts…

I’m ending this year having achieved many of the goals that I’ve been working towards.

However, it seems like the goal posts just tend to move, and I don’t know if that’s a bad thing. Working hard on what I care about has opened up opportunities for me that I never dreamed of, and I want to keep my momentum going.

However it feels like I’m no longer “striving”, but instead just trying to maintain my position in life because I’m finally where I want to be… I am finally where I want to be. I guess that’s why this year in review feels so weird to me. In 2024 I reached a milestone that I had been working towards for my entire 20s: being happy with my career. Now that I reached it, I don’t know what the future holds in store for me, but I do know one thing; I am excited.

This is my 4th Year in Review. This page is an effort to put into the words the progress I have made in life over the past 365 days. Areas where I succeeded, areas where I did not, and overall what I am working towards next year.

This review is 100% for me. I share it to encourage others to do something similar, while also increasing my own personal accountability.

I will be asking myself the same three questions I asked last year:

• What went well this year?
• What didn’t go well this year?
• What am I working toward?

What Went Well This Year?

Game Development: I built and launched my first game on the app store. It’s a bit unbelievable when I think about how much I’ve accomplished in one year and frankly, I have built and created an amazing game, especially for my first title. If you’re interested in playing it, just search “Idle Brewery: Beer Tycoon” on either the Google Play or Apple App Store.

Problem Solving: One primary benefit of learning to program is you learn how to solve problems. I have solved thousands of problems this year in game development. Some large, some small, but all were important. I have worked this specific muscle in my brain to the point of exhaustion every week for the past year, and because of this it has continued to get stronger and stronger. It’s a skill that nobody can ever take from me.

Fitness: I moved to Boston in September of 2023 I joined a climbing gym with 4 locations within biking distance from the house I am renting. I have been climbing nonstop whenever I can which has allowed me to complete some fairly difficult climbs (many V4s climbs and a few V5s) which is the upper range of what an intermediate climber is able to do. I’ve been climbing for over 10 years at this point so part of my internal voice says I should be further along in my climbing, but it is just a hobby for me. I’m not training, I’m just climbing as much as I can and I know that if I continue to put time in I’ll slowly get past these difficulty plateaus.

Relationships: The older I get, the more value I place on my relationships. This is even more true these days now that I spend the majority of my workday alone. Each year I push myself to go more and more out of my way to stay connected with everybody that I used to know.

What didn’t go well this year?

Business & Finances: I dipped into my savings this year as I did not have a large amount of income coming in. While my business is profitable, I’m still working on getting it to the level where it can fully sustain me and that will be my top priority for the next year. If I’m being totally honest, part of me is disappointed that I am not further along.

Expectations: In my mind, this was my “Hell or High Water Year” to make my living as a solo game developer. While I made enormous amounts of progress towards that goal, including have a fully published game and a profitable business, I did not fully reach my goal of making a living from game development and for me that is crushing. It put a bit of a damper on the entire end of my year and I’m realizing that there are some underlying issues with how I approach my life. My expectations for myself can often be too high, and I also tend to be too hard on myself.

Mental Health & Mindfulness: The downside of building an online business is the same as the upside. You can constantly monitor it from anywhere, and it’s incredibly tempting to do so every single day. I got into a bad habit of checking in on my different social channels and looking at my app analytics daily, especially right when I woke up. I plan to break this habit in 2024 and live my life in a less reactionary state.

What am I working toward?

Caring Less: This is such a weird goal to type out, but I care way too much about what others think and my work. It got to the point where I became overly obsessive and was working constantly 24/7 which led me to my current state of burnout.

Financial Stability: Same goal as last year. While it’s a bit lackluster to just say “I’m going to continue trying to make a living doing what I’m doing”, it’s the main thing that I am focused on and there’s not many other major goals I feel I can focus on unit I achieve this one.

Mindfulness. My dad recently describes life as “Room A” vs “Room B”. Room A is a room full of salesmen who are only making outgoing calls. Room B is also a group of salesmen making outgoing calls, but also have to deal with incoming requests. Apparently, the people in Room A are much more happier in life because they get to live on and set their own schedules. My brain is HARDWIRED to live in Room B, but I specifically chose a career Room A because I knew it would better for my mental health. I want to embrace that more this year, as well as generally being more mindful of my life in general. As the great Ferriss Bueller once said “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.”.

Compounding interest is life’s most valuable phenomenon.

It’s often discussed alongside money, where it is a simple mathematical equation. For example, let’s say you had $100 and earned a return of 20% per year for 5 years.

Here is what it would look like:

• Year 1: $120 | Income: $20
• Year 2: $144 | Income: $24
• Year 3: $173 | Income: $29
• Year 4: $207 | Income: $34
• Year 5: $249 | Income: $42

Overtime, your income will keep on growing because it compounds.

Returns are not always positive though.

Sometimes they are negative, and history is littered with peopled who have lost everything you have chasing high returns.

Compounding interest isn’t just a financial term though. It exists everywhere.

Our Collective Knowledge

Today, humanity’s collective knowledge is vast. It wasn’t always that way though.

Before we were able to write, every piece of information was passed via word of mouth.

The amount we could retain was limited to the collective memory of a group of individuals.

Then, 5,500 years ago in Mesopotamia, the first written language was invented.

From that point on, knowledge began to build upon itself.

Sometimes it grew in massive spurts during periods such as the Renaissance Era.

Other times, it shrank in times of upheaval, like the public burning of books in 1993 Nazi Germany.

On average though, knowledge was constantly built to the point that every piece of public information now fits in your pocket.

We all benefit from 5 centuries of compounded knowledge.

Which all started with someone recording a small, tiny piece of knowledge.

Why Should This Matter To You?

Apart from the fact that compounding is responsible for the device you are reading this on, it is also the most powerful power you can harness.

We all start somewhere.

Some of us have won the lottery and are born into privilege and wealth. I was.

Others are born into poverty, under an oppressive governments, or with extreme disabilities.

Regardless, each one of us has ~73 years (the average life expectancy) to compound our own skills and knowledge.

If you are reading this, then you’re likely on a computer connected to the internet. 4/10 people in this world don’t have access to the internet.

It does necessarily matter where you started though in life. Many people have gone from rags to riches, just like many have gone from riches to rags.

What matters is that every single day you have a choice to add a positive number to what compounds, or a negative number.

You don’t even need to focus on improving 1% better each day. All that matters is that you stay positive.

What a drag it is getting old. – The Rolling Stones

On Nov 15th, 1963, Valium was approved by the FDA.

It was initially marketed to “reduce psychic tension” and it went on to become one of the world’s most widely prescribed drugs. Also, the first drug to reach $1 billion in sales.

It was so pervasive, it made its way into pop culture through song like Mother’s Little Helper.

“Even though she’s not really ill, there’s a little yellow pill. She goes running for the shelter of her mother’s little helper.”

– The Rolling Stones

Mother’s little helper (aka Valium) was a blockbuster success in part due to the new world of pharmaceutical advertising. The pharmaceutical companies took out ads targeted at doctors, who then prescribed the drug to their patients.

After a few years of Valium’s explosive growth, it slowly became clear to the public that the drug was not as described. For one, it had negative side effects (which the ads stated it did not), including a range of withdrawal symptoms.

This resulted in a high chance of abuse and addiction, which the companies blamed on the users and their “addictive personalities”. Valium was not even an illicit drug, it was one prescribed by medical professionals, which made it all that much more alluring.

When investigations were launched against the drug, the defense always came down to one core rebuttal “Doctor are smart enough to not be fooled by advertisements”.

This argument used the widespread public assumption that medical professionals, specifically those who graduated from medical school, had superior judgement to the rest of the population because of their education. They could not be fooled, as the rest of us could, by deceptive and misleading advertising.

Now though, the negative societal effects of these blockbuster drugs like Valium and OxyCotin are abundantly clear: addiction and sometimes, death.

Clearly, the doctors were not smart enough to know the fallout that prescribing these small yellow pills would have.

In reality, few people could have known, because it was something that nobody had seen before. Mass addiction to a pharmaceutical drug was a new concept, especially one that was was created for, sold to, and supported by doctors.

While there are many lessons to take away from Valium, OxyCotin, and their other counterparts, the biggest one is to be careful of blindly trusting other. Regardless of their background, education, or anything else that gives them authority.

Everybody is fallible. Everybody makes mistakes.

And nobody cares as much about yourself as you do.